So the blog has been silent for a week, and it’s partially because my family has been grieving the death of my niece. Doubtless many of you readers know someone who has endured such heartbreaking loss, and I encourage you to pray for them today.
Anyone who has lost a child at any stage knows how tempting it is to go down the road of “what ifs”…and as moms, some of us are really susceptible to lies about our worthiness to even be mothers. I’m not thin enough, organized enough, clean enough, healthy enough, artistic enough, fun enough, and the list could go on and on. I compare my weaknesses to my friends’ strengths and always find myself lacking. A very wise mentor caught me going down this mental path several years ago and said, “But remember, God knows everything about you, and YOU are the mom that He chose for your kids.”
I try to remember that on days when my son cuts his thumb open, my big girls are fighting over doll clothes, and the baby has to be taken to the ER. Or when my daughter can’t find her soccer uniform (because it’s still unwashed from last week), I burn dinner, and no one is in bed on time. I hear the voice of the evil one accusing me: “Bad mom! Bad mom!” But I have to choose to remember that imperfect as I am, I am the mom that God chose for my kids. With all my failings, He has still given me the task of bearing five immortal souls in my body, and raising four of them in the nurture and admonition of the Lord. He began a good work in me when I asked Him into my heart over a quarter century ago. He has promised to bring His good work to completion, and my motherhood is part of that process.
This past month, our family has been memorizing the hymn, “O Worship the King.” Whether you’re a mom with children in your arms, out of the house, in heaven, or in the womb, may you find encouragement in the verse we memorized last week:
Frail children of dust, and feeble as frail,
In Thee do we trust, nor find Thee to fail;
Thy mercies how tender, how firm to the end,
Our Maker, Defender, Redeemer, and Friend.